Reading 'Twilight', by Elie Wiesel
, I came across a disturbing prayer by a 'madman'I could understand this prayer sneaking upon someone without them noticing it. Yet to wish for it....
"Lord, since I am suffering, I not only accept my suffering. I yearn for it, I invoke it. Lord, since suffering exists, give it to me so that I may understand those it strikes. God of my fathers, throw me into the flames so that I may emerge at peace with myself. Break me in tow so that I may become whole. Push me towards darkness so that I may discover your hidden face."